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I should be blogging about life…

And yet, I have no desire at present to bother 😑.

The last two weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions, violence and “life may be over” stress, and that’s not even counting what’s going on outside my own home! Things have been nuts, and since sharing it is the entire point of me having a blog, I should be writing about it. I have found that writing about things right after they happen tends to be bad, and instead it seems to work out better if I take some time to process everything, and then share.

So in lieu of being a responsible blogger…

My PlayStation 4 took a crap on me (Blu-ray stopped working) and it had to be replaced; it’s my entertainment console as well as gaming rig. I was lucky enough to get my game files moved over so I didn’t have to try and re download 200 gigs of data on a 3 Mb connection (that would have taken a week at least), but none of my save games transferred 😫. So, I decided to replay some games. I’m currently implementing a new infrastructure plan in the war torn, radioactive world of Fallout 4. I love the game franchise to “nuclear” pieces, even the weird, Command & Conquer style of Fallout Tactics: BOS.

Now, I’m sure a lot of you are asking yourselves: “How does she have time for video games with all that caring for her children entails?” The answer is, barely. I have to pause the game a crap-ton, sometimes for an hour or more. It is not an easy balance, but I find that every now and then, I need to just veg out. It is a great stress reliever for me (and the added bonus of not having to pay much attention to the news and all the stress that brings, is awesome). It also helps a little that my son likes to watch me play and enjoys the “atomic rock” music genre that is featured in the game. In fact, he often turns on Minecraft – Fallout, just to hear the music.

So that’s it, I’m basically leaving reality for a bit, in favor a post-apocalyptic wasteland. Now, I realize this could be real sooner rather than later, but I still don’t see it as depressing or ominous: more like prepping or numbing me (in a very weird, abstract way) to the possibility of this being the future.  It also pairs well with wine… and it’ll have to do.


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